Embracing the Change

I was looking through old pictures last month and came across a picture from 2013.  Trip, my then baby, was about 10 months old and I had been working out consistently and pretty intensely for about six months.  I had muscle, I had tone, and I really liked my legs (not to be weird haha.)

Fast-forward to 2018, three boys and five years older.  I’m more tired, I’m not as motivated, and my legs, well, they are not as nice.

 I made a decision to start working out again.  I can’t committee to five to six days a week anymore but I knew I needed to do something. I knew I needed to change, so I started spinning.

 I’ve been going to Cycle Bar, in South Tampa, and I love it.  The first couple classes were hard, but I noticed they were getting easier.  My resistance harder and my class rank (they tell you how you did at the end of class) getting higher.  I’m competitive.  I don’t like to be in last place, that’s for sure. 

 Last week, I was a little more tired than usually but I still made it to class.  Five minutes in I felt like I wanted to throw up.  Has this ever happened to you?   My body felt like it weighed a thousand pounds and I did not want to be there at all.  In my mind I kept thinking of ways of how to get out of it…I could start coughing uncontrollably.   I could pretend I needed to go to the bathroom, but then I heard it, the Holy Spirit, as gentle as morning dew, like a sweet song speaking in my ear. 

“Amy I know this is hard, change is hard, but I’m here and you can do this.”

 The next forty minutes were ugly and I actually almost threw up after class.  I finished second to last only to my friend who was spinning for the first time and couldn’t get her foot to lock into the bike.  Ok, basically I finished last.

 But for those forty minutes God had my ear and this is what He said.

When we look at change we want to get to the end so bad, we avoid the pain, the trials and the suffering, but to truly change we must endure the path no matter what that looks like.

 Even Jesus asked in Luke 22:42 said, “Father if you are willing, please, take this cup of suffering away from me.  Yet I want your will to be done, not mine.”

 A few hours later he was being beat, mocked and whipped until his skin ripped open.

 He suffered. 

 He changed everything. 

 In his weakness the Father was about to blow the doors open, tear the veil and conquer our greatest enemy, Death.

The holidays always shine a light on change.  Maybe this is your first Christmas without someone very dear to you.  Maybe you are ill or fighting to hold onto something you know isn’t good for you.  Maybe you are struggling with an addiction, or anxiety, or you lost your job, or your family is a mess, or your life is a mess, but DO NOT lose your hope.

 Fight, struggle and grasp “How wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ….awake from you old life and be brought alive.”

Change is hard, change can be painful, you may feel alone.  But our God is not just the God of good times but He is a God of ALL times.  He will not abandon you or forsake you. 

Change will grow you and bring you closer to Him.

My Prayer:  But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength.  They will soar high on wings like eagles.  They will run and not grow weary.  They will walk and not faint.”  Isaiah 40:31

In our bible study we just finished reading John chapter seventeen. Read this.  If you are stuck, I would like to pray for you.  Just comment below or send me a message.